Dec 25, 2020
What I see and hear
Speaking in jibberish not tongues
Walrus meets Elk
My son converted to the religion of escapism and paid with his life
Overdose is a conspiracy, it never just happens
Joining this death-cult is a commitment
disconnect from the web
Lose the ability to hear
Abusers are zealots
Dec 18, 2020
Recorded at 4AM after the last day of my brainwashing seminar
3 days of uncomfortable hammering
A had 3 wonderful days with my mother and her partner.
"you've had it too easy"
So much seems up to the individual
My son painted a face of a clown
In the woods there is a swamp
I resisted the positive message
I am drawn to...
Dec 11, 2020
I signed up for a brainwashing seminar.
I approach it with an open mind (pun)
Is it possible to prevail over grief?
Can I even envision a life without my son? etc...
How would he feel knowing how you are now?
A new me. Nothing Matters
Why can't I just let him be dead?
Dec 4, 2020
Today is what should be my son's 27th birthday.
His twin, a friend, his co-conspirator was just found dead. Like my son.
I felt compelled to dedicate this week's episode to this awful twist of reality.
Heartbreaking and disturbing.
I visit with and speak to my son. I break the news to his memory.
Nov 27, 2020
What is the meaning of life? I asked Aristotle.
Endgame, Skill, and the intrinsic human desire for good.
I asked my teacher "what the meaning of life" his reply: "not to suck"
Guitar and Bass are my solace now. My son is no longer a human, that i know of.
Drugs are connection negligence
Stupid is fatal